Potter wrote: ↑Tue Oct 18, 2022 7:03 am
IMO worry/anxiety through having no control, and no hope of fixing any problems, leads to depression, because if you spend all your time living on a knife edge then it's going to eventually drag you right down.
I don't disagree with this (or the rest of the post)
BUT
Not all depression is caused by anxiety. There are so so SOOOO many reasons/causes of depression
I've suffered in various forms all my life (well, I can remember feeling what I now know is depression in my early teens, so most of my life). Mostly I can 'manage' it and it doesn't take over. Riding bikes kept it at bay massively
The physical causes are (to me) the weird ones. These I am struggling to control. It's why I've not replied to post on this thread for awhile - if I can't control my issue and I can't be positive about my issue, I don't seem to have much to say that's positive for anyone else
My life is good. Things are going well. Future looks pretty great TBH - especially in comparison to the last 5 and a bit years! But I'm not happy. I am having to WORK at being positive - work really hard, which isn't normal. I KNOW things are positive, so why do I not feel that way. I know life is good, ok, it's not easy, but I've had five seriously shit/tough/difficult years and everything I've dealt with in that time could cause serious depression totally outside the fact that my brain seems to be wired that way anyway. But, if it's ok, even pretty good, why can I not BE positive.
Thing is that I do know the (probable) reasons. But it's difficult to get the balance needed with help from doctors on the things that aren't balanced. And that does piss me off. I'm not anxious about it. But I am pissed off! Equally, pissed off is a smidge better than sad or depressed - I think
EDIT - turns out there may be another medical issue (another FFS) that has similar symptoms to menopause. Just got to find out when I can see the doc and maybe I can get rid of the sads by curing the second medical issue FFS (Pretty sure they are connected, but FFS
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